Nobody wrote me about the changes?????? Grrrr… anyway…
Adolfo took me to Cheesecake Factory for dinner tonight. Yum….
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I made some cosmetic changes on the site today. I think they look great… but they are strictly cosmetic. I am just trying to keep it updated and clean looking. With the end of the holidays I got rid of the winter theme action and made a plain background. What do you think?
Not much other news to report. I am home for the day and will be heading off the the gym soon. I might have some client work tonight and am struggling with other issues right now.
See, the company I am trying to build feels like it is built on tinker toys. Some important associations and business items I need are non-existant. I am troubled by financial issues and commitment from one of my team mates. I know.. if he reads this… he will be upset at me. I am venting. He knows how we are having some troubles and how important it is to be focused… but his commitments are varied.
ergh!
I am venting… school starts Monday and a guy named Daniel just called me who is my class. He is a hotty. He is looking for his books two days before school starts. I ordered my book almost 2 weeks ago and they are just arriving… HELLO? Anyway… I am off for now. xoxo
Another week has gone by and all is relatively well. I am starting to hate this job I have at Sur La Table… mostly for one reason. There is a guy there who is getting up my nose. He is the most terrible old, disasterous, malfunctioning queen. What a mess. At middle age plus he is a solid gold mess with a rich boyfriend. His BF is in decent shape, older, and has his wheels on the ground. These two are no match! At least I do not get it….
I am not being judgemental… well, I suppose I am a bit. His BF has taken a liking to Adolfo and I and I do not think that sits all that well with him. Whatever… I am looking at getting another job soon and school is starting again on Monday.
My school books have not all arrived form www.bn.com as of yet. I am still waiting for a couple of them. My classes next term are baking, Plating, and Purchasing. I suspect this is going to be the toughest term so far. The quarter that follows should be garde Marger and I am nervous about that… this is very important! I made a couple recipes from that section of my book including a mayonaise and deviled eggs. My mayo came out so nice and full of flavor. That was the way I intended it to be though. I used an olive oil instead of a clear oil. Olive oil is a flavoring agent and gave the mayo a light greenish color. Yummers.
I am struggling with bills as usual. I suppose the next year is going to be rough, but I am doing everything possible to make money. It’s nice that some people have sent me some cash to get my… thanks!
I used my birthday gift last night. I went to the Luxor spa and got a deep tissue message from jason… he is a guy I dated when I first moved here. He did such an awesome job! I had such a nice time while I was there. I arrived at 5:45… ran for a half hour or so… steam room for a while…. message for an hour… back to steam, ice water dips, scented showers, and relaxation big time. I was a cooked noodle when I left!
I also raqn into a familiar face when I was there. I ran into Brian from www.chaosinaustin.com and talked to him for a while. He was buddies with GC (www.gaycams.org) and Mikey (www.funkcamlive.com) last year when the adult web site convention was in town. Brian was a sweet guy. We talekd for a little while and he reminded of Alex and some of the other guys from the cam site I miss, too.
I used to post and have a board on gaycams, but I got into a big fight with GC… well, he deleted me off. Brian says he bans people a lot, but I lost out on talking with a lot of nice people because of the fued. Oh well… I started posting on another board… can’t tell you which though.
I need to run… they are installing a new stove in the apartment and will be replacing the washing machine today too. I have to work tonight at Sur la Table until 11… oi vay! Love you!
I am doing laundary tonight. Adolfo has the evening off and is in the bedroom watching television. He has been running hot and cold all evening long. Argh…. it is frustrating. So… I am going to ignore it and wait for the personality I like to come back into control.
Anyway, in my last entry I was talking about New Year Resolutions. My resolutions this year are to: be a nicer person and be more patient with the other idiots God put on this world to challenge me on a daily basis, to get into better shape (through a plan I am currently working on), and to get focused on my business once again.
Adolfo, on the other hand, will get his driver’s liscence and then I will nudge him into buying a car. Sometimes I get very tired of being a fucking taxi. Although I cannot say that to him without a whole new case of fucking drama.
Ugh! The guy who used to be my best frweind in high school wrote me a couple weeks ago telling me I was not making any entries into my diary for his “voyeuristic side”. So… when I looked inside I realized I was way behind. I apologize to everyone who checks in on me… is there anyone else left? Is there anyone reading this thing?
Anyway, all is well here and school is two weeks away. I was hoping to be able to go away on a trip this school break like I could on the last two. Ergh.. I may not be. I was talking to my travel buddy about it in e-mail as he is currently on a flight between Sydney and Bangkok as he told me I missed out on Amsterdam. ARGH…. I would have LOVED LOVED LOVED TO HAVE GONE THERE. Am I shouting?
Oh well… maybe another day? School is starting again on the 13th. I am worried about money as usual. School is so damn expensive. Talk soon
E-Gads! Has it really been a month since I submitted a diary entry? Well, this has beena bizzy month. I will have new pics posted as son as they are available. Adolfo and I have been through the ringer and back this month with some big ass mo-fo fights and some great make-up sessions. Ha ha ha… too much information I am sure. All in all we are lwearning a LOT about what it takes to keep a relationship. HE has been challeneged a lot by me.
We are making our new year resolutions now. I will post them tomorrow or soon when we get them figured out.
No, I did not fall off the planet. I moved in an apartment with Adolfo in the last 2 weeks and the new situation has been rocky most of the time. Adolfo is dealing with a lot of things and I learned I need to back off and let him get his head together. He has intimated a few times that he thinks our realtionship is not working out. BUT, by the next morning he is all lovey-dovey again and he apologizes for the things he said the day before. It’s been a real yo-yo here. It’s absolutely nuts at times.
Last night he worked until 11 at his second job at the Venetian and I felt very guilty about not going to pick him up. I decided to go to bed a little early because I am trying to go running in the mornings and get sleepy earlier at night. He came to bed about 1:30 and was gone this morning by 4:30!?!?!?! Man, he does not get enough sleep and I really think it is effecting him in some very bad ways.
Adolfo does not drive or have a car. I am hoping he will realize that he “needs” to take care of that, but I also realize ONLY he can decide that. I am not a taxi service.
Since the move he and I drove to see my mom as seen in the gallery. There are a couple pics from when Adolfo, Tom, and myself went to help mom with some chores around the house. The following week Mom and Bob came for Thanksgiving and stayed for a few days. I know they really love us and care about Adolfo and I. We had a lot of arguments and tried to have them privately, but mom told me she could over hear us.
The good thing is that mom and Bob took an interest and offered us, independently, some advice. I think it helped a lot. I am trying hard, but it barely seems to be enough. God knows what will happen next?
Anyway, the Christmas tree is up and I will have some new pics of that soon.
It’s been a few days since I wrote here at all. So here are a few updates: I am still in school and had midterms over the last 2 weeks. I got a score of 86 on my History/Politics Class though I do not know what my grades were from Culinary yet. The chef kinda kicked me in the ass, though I do disagree with some of what he said.
Anyhoo… I have 2 days until moving as as of this posting. Adolfo and I move into the new place inside this same complex, but just a few doors away. I have not packed a damn thing yet. Tune in on the web cam on Friday before 3 to see me….
I took Adolfo some flowers today… well, 1 flower and a fun card! I hope he liked it. I wrote in it that I wish I was worthy of his love. I often do not feel that I am. I think I do things on occasion that errode our relationship. I am a foolish foolish man. Only so few people know all the dirty details, but trust me, they are dirty and annoying.
I also had two dreams this week that were really bad and upsetting:
1. Sunday night I had a dreamI was setting up a buffett for Chef Hoffmeister and was working and supervising the junior class. One of the guys in the class was not attentive and lit a tree in the display on fire. I yelled at him and he got really really mad and three a can through the window thus ruining the buffett because all the cold air would come in and the Chef would be pissed. I stepped away to call 911 and realized I was doing the wrong thing. I should have handled the guy better and not let him get upset. I learned a lesson about dealing with people in this.
2. Monday night I had a shorter dream. I had just taken a huge crap (really) in the toilet and did not flush. I went to shower amd I could see a worm easing down the wall over the toilet. It had two tiny arms like a praying mantis and it was the same colot. It had two huge black eyes. It was growing slowly as it climbed down. I wacked it in the head and it fell into the toilet. It rose out of the toilet, growing larger and larger, until it became a powerful, charing, and pissed off cobra snake. Well!!!! I woke up and flew out of bed…
When the Monday night dream was over I woke up and wrote the essay for class seen in my biography section (About Scott). It was 4 am when I woke and could not go back to bed. I was stressed.
Another long and boring day. I worked out and I worked at Sur La Table. I know… very boring.
So I worked on one of my homework assignments for my Political Science/History Class. link THIS is the paper I wrote which was supposed to be personalized about my own Political Socialiszation. When I read it earlier it was good. I hope I think it is still good tomorrow. What do you think.
Is it sad that I live my life the way I do? No one really knows the answer to that unless you’re Mikey, Adolfo, Doc in New Jersey, or Allan in Houston. I am certain my dad wonders if I do not have a screw loose! I should write about what I am doing so you can understand. Gary… are you gunna flip!
I need to get to bed. Mid Terms in Culinary classs and I need to be better prepped for the test. Oi Vay! Later Taters!
I do not seem to be able to get the sutomizations on this diary to follow my design specs! Very seriously frustrating…
This next Saturday we are moving to our new apartment. We are also gunning up for Thanksgiving. Luckily we get to spend Thanksgiving and Christmas in our new place. I am excited about that and cannot think of much less for now. Adolfo is not as in to it as I am though… durn it!
I bought some new cookware fo rthe apartment today. Sur La Table is having a special purchasing discount for us and I got lot’s of stuff. I got a sterling roasting pan, combo steamer & double boiler set, small sauce pan, skillet, and some cooking extras! Yummers….
I just got off work and am trying to mellow down right now before going to bed. Adolfo is already there… he must have been bored tonight? grrrr….