It’s been a wierd week and I am trying to review my life situation and determine where I need to go and what sacrifices I need to make. It’s frustrating as I struffle to make ends meet – like everyone else in this country – and make plans to shed a lot of the crap […]
Change and Chaos go hand in hand. In this case chaos is in the heart. I started seeing someone recently and then I was told – I am not physically attracted to you. The natural question about starting at all is… then why? Why start something to begin with and use words like “love” if […]
It’s here… getting close to middle 40’s. I can say this birthday completely and totally sucked balls. Not in a good way either. I got a lot … a LOT of well wishes and a great card from my mom. But in the end, the weight of certain people forgetting it was my birthday is […]
I deleted the post I made recently talking about a guy I fell for… more like fell on my face. That is exactly how dating has been for me lately. I really feel a strong connection to someone and find out how alone I am in the idea. Frankly, my whole romantic life has been […]
Life has been decent lately with some obvious exceptions. I am taking a new perspective on life here in LV while looking forward to getting through this last year of school. Ideally I should be finished by the end of March. What’s next though? My job is working out okay. Wierd… with the projects I […]
Johnny Cash – love ya baby. Today I did something empowering. I went to the movies by myself. I am in a time when I feel like what friends I have they are miles away and few people are here I can trust or rely on. Not a single person around me but me I […]
I have now been single again for a year. Can’t say the experience has been rewarding… no not in the least. I am pretty sure if I had not met Adolfo when I did and that we had not been together before that it is likely I might not have met anyone here. The faults […]
I’d like to be able to report anything special but – life these days is anything but. I am always behind at school and have no real free time. Even today, I planned on hitting the books with the day but there is stuff going on that is going to keep me from all that. […]
I feel fat… now I need to get my ass in gear. Had a nice dinner with Adolfo again tonight. We went to the gourmet restaurant of the year… yes – red lobster. Yum. Ha ha ha ha… xo
Life is just kinda wierd sometimes. As much as a person keeps setting goals to take them ahead, fate keeps kicking a guy in the balls. It’s just a reminder that we really have no control where we go and when we try to do it… well, it all either goes to shit… pear shaped… […]