what sucks is when I have to admit Adolfo is right. we talked on the phone today and he pointed out to me saying: “you know we are not together anymore, right?” Yeah, tiger – I know. I miss him and I enjoyed his company a lot as we were together, but the end of […]
So, I talked to Adolfo on the phone today and it was kinda weird. Other than the fact I woke him up, I can’t help but wonder what he is thinking. I know I missed him a lot. I have wondered about if I missed him, his company or the fact that I just had […]
I have been struggling a long time with who I am and where I want to go in life. At 59 years of age, most people have those questions settled. The vision of who I think I am and how the world responds to me is as different as the shores of an ocean. The […]
I have been thinking about an entry like this for a long time. Truth be told, I have been stuck in a place that has recently been making it harder to move forward with. They say, if you are looking back at your regrets you can’t be looking ahead to your future. And at my […]
I turned 50 since I last really posted and this was the most unceremonious and non-validating year I have ever experienced. Is it weird I am having flashbacks to when I was a kid and I got cheated out of a birthday party when I was a Farrell’s Ice Cream Parlor when I was – […]
More weird dreams last night. At least when I have dreams they turn out to be a long story. It is often very complicated and with a lot of detail. The key is to remember them once I have been in the waking world for every long. I do remember my ex named Adolfo being […]
Is writing in here more lately helpful at all? I should make a vBlog soon, I have not done that in a while either. I am not dealing with Tom’s death and I will not let that enter into my present. Losing him has been a long process and it started a long while ago. […]
One of the older faeries here in the city sent me a text message asking I we could meet and talk. He mentioned my current hard times and was offering to be a sounding board on some levels. So I am waiting outside Cafe Flore for him. He text me saying he would be a […]
The weekend is almost over and definitely a weird one. I was able to predict… really without knowing… that we were 4 days following a full moon because there was some crazy ass shit going on around this city. Now that was Thursday. Thus… my weekend began. On Wednesday I had the absolutely best interview […]
This is actually part 2 of a story… or shall I say the non-readers digest version. I posted a very clean version of this tale on www.gayburners.com choosing to leave off many of the details because it was just too bizarre. Castro Street Fair It all started at the Castro Street Fair when I was […]