I deleted the post I made recently talking about a guy I fell for… more like fell on my face. That is exactly how dating has been for me lately. I really feel a strong connection to someone and find out how alone I am in the idea. Frankly, my whole romantic life has been a disaster anyway.
Yes, I know I got out of a relationship for 5 or 6 years with Adolfo last year. Well, that was in the shit-can 1/2 the time. He was always mad at me for something anyway whether I earned it or not.
I must be a real shit???? Someone let me know or give me feedback on this one, because I am dying to know. I can cook. I like to have fun. Travel – good. Looks – not horrible. Gregarious nature… good right? Yes, busy a lot and slight obsessive over dumb ideas… but otherwise I am not a horrible catch?!?!?!????!!!!???
Dating this year:
1. Kio or Kia or something like that – Japanese guy from last summer while I was in Portland. I got the “I’m not looking for a relationship b.s. on date #3 – then we dated for 2 months-ish and I was dumped … lied to about the reason, but dumped. (this is me rolling my eyes)
2. After a long dry spell – Jesse – hot Mexican guy here in LV. Connected and still connect on some levels when I see him around. I got the “…no relationship” speech on the tail of the 1st date – I said… why are we discussing this? This is only our first date…. good God I am in hell!
3. Was recent… Ben – another Mexican guy who I fell for really fast. Too fast… stupid fast. I am in a serious relationship deficit. Not used to not dating someone… I like the companionship!?!?!?!?!
Honorable mention goes to Ondreg… damn sexy Boston boy. If I was in Boston I swear I would have married this guy. He warned me he falls too fast and hard for someone… that would have been a Fusion Reaction, huh????
Alas, I am alone. I hang out. I have fun. People offer sex and stupidity and out of all of it I I am still empty handed. Those closest to me might have a clue, but the frustration is just draining.
Today I met another guy who look really cool… yeah, in Mexico! Another one of the unobtainable…. I am batting swell.
This gives me gas.