This weekend was a lot about struggling with emotional shit. My mom was put into the hospital on Friday for a clot in her lung and an irregular heart beat. My step brothers and sisters really rallied. They did such an amazing job of coming together that I felt like I let my mom down. […]

I wrote my family telling them that there is no reason to hold grudges or take sides following the fall-out between the Sherwood-Aldermans and myself (my uncle and cousin). I moved out of their house 95% because I could not find a job up there and felt like I was in a very slippery slope. […]

I have been tired a lot and feeling overwhelmed constantly. I’m really driving myself into the ground. That or I could just need to go to the doctor. I take vitamins. I am exercising. I am trying to lose weight. I am trying to do the right things and it’s a climb up a steep […]

I am worried about Sam. He worries me a lot. In fact the last few years he has been going topsy turvey through life. He is one of the most intellegent people I know, but has managed to get himself into a pickle of a “space” in life. He told me today… “I am ready […]

The holidays are always a little on the rough side. Emotionally, temperamentally, as well as the abililty to have faith in other people. I once made an entry that kvetched about this city and the way people communicate with each other. How people do not look other people in the eyes. How people are generally […]

Anonymous Lawyer is symbolic of the mental instability people are playing out publicly. He is a major figure in a prestigious L.A. Law Firm with a passive aggressive masochist fantasy of torturing junior associates that he plays out on the web. His most recent entries have demonstrated his sick, disgusting and venomous treatment of other […]

I’m not feeling very philosophical. Neither do I feel complacent. I have been thinking about friends of mine again, wondering how people are. I think about Terry and the stuff he is doing in some city in the middle of California… not one of those romantic shoreline cities, but in one of those places you […]

I went for a nice run this morning and it was good. When I was half-way through it I came upon a site for a fun-run today in front of some old-folks home and it looked like they were just getting started. I was surprised and forgot I used to run a lot of those […]

I am at work right now… having just discovered that I can write in my blogs. This week I have a really FUCKED UP schedule because I am working grave-yard until the 12th… which is a date I am dashing off to SFO for a couple more days. I finally told a lot of people […]

This has been an interesting month, as it is ending in some pretty cool ways. I have a lot of goals and in achieving them I am stunned that I am making head-way. We are leaving on vacation in a few days and will have some cool pictures to post. We will have some neat […]