Brian’s words were in my head today. What he said made a lot of sense. He said that I should think more of the NOW instead of …the opposite of that. He is eerily accurate about all that and it worries me. When I consciously think about it, I can stay in the moment. When […]

I am in upheaval lately…. again. I was asked out on a date by an 18 year old cutie and I think he was also feeling quite giddy. Well, that made me feel good. I have flirted and k-noodled with a couple guys in recent weeks and it made me worry for my relationship with […]

As you can see, I have been making some changes to the site. This is supposed to be my swansong as it were, but I have said that before. I think this will be the last change to my site… but time will tell, huh? New pics coing later this month were supposed to be […]

In case anyone was wondering…. I am a complete mental defect! I am deluded. I am borderline insane. I live in a fantasy world so bent and twisted that I should be something other than what I am. What does that mean? Well, I have been doing a lot of reflecting again lately and struggling […]

Adolfo and I have been fighting again. This started on Tuesday night which grew from a misunderstanding and exploded all over the wall last night when he ended up sleeping in the spare bedroom. I was so pissed off I did not mind him being gone at all. The question in the end was… did […]

Another week has gone by and all is relatively well. I am starting to hate this job I have at Sur La Table… mostly for one reason. There is a guy there who is getting up my nose. He is the most terrible old, disasterous, malfunctioning queen. What a mess. At middle age plus he […]

Before my sleeping pill starts kicking in, I better get this written. About last night’s entry about Adolfo. I got a couple comments in e-mail about it already and I want to continue. You see, this year I did some inner relfection and realized that I spent a lot of time focused on the future […]

I am writing after having gone to bed. I got back up because I am too wound up to sleep. So, I have some tea on the stove waiting to brew and a nibble of cranberry -orange bread waiting to go with it. This has been a tough week and it is only Tuesday. The […]

Well, I got Mikey off to Toronto this morning and I actually got up at 5am to drive him there. What is more amazing than anything is that I was able to wake up at that ungodly hour and actually function enough to drive to the airport without killing myself or anyone else. I have […]