Anonymous Lawyer is symbolic of the mental instability people are playing out publicly. He is a major figure in a prestigious L.A. Law Firm with a passive aggressive masochist fantasy of torturing junior associates that he plays out on the web. His most recent entries have demonstrated his sick, disgusting and venomous treatment of other people. They also often tend to show his contempt for his own family including this hallow headed wife and life sucking children he occasionally refers to.

Even if this person turned out to be a total fabrication it is still an unyielding demonstration of the new human condition of posturing and disconnection. TIME magazine even gave this neophyte props in their Top 50 Web Sites article recently.

I was watching CNN during my dinner break this morning and I saw story after story of human idiocy further demonstrating the real disease that will destroy this world. There was story after story of people destroying themselves and people around them out of ignorance and stupidity.

Do I sound angry? If the voice in your “inner monologue” is anger, you should instead be hearing disbelief and shock. Imagine watching someone doing something so beyond reason that it defies understanding.

There are these men who keep roosters for cock-fighting on Thailand. They care more for these birds than their own lives or families, because one “keeper” sucked the blood from his roosters throat as it was dying from the bird-flu only to die a week later of the animal born disease.

A group of black-kids from Houston were beating the shit out of one kid on camera and the newscaster said it was “because of the frustrations felt over Katrina”. Houston? High school rats? Give me a break…

And there is a group of pharmacists in Illinois who refused to give out the “Morning After Pill” to prescription carrying women. They are on unpaid leave from Walgreens because they are a bunch of Christians claiming “religious persecution” which makes me want to VOMIT. Christians need to be martyrs, don’t they… but what about their families who are without a bread-winner? I guess they need to suffer as well?

Why can’t all these people just kill themselves or each other so the rest of us can finally live in peace? These religious nuts and other people with misdirected ideals are only serving to drive the rest of us from each other. These fanatics and anarchists are just a pain in the ass.

It’s been a few days… this new schedule is something that takes a while to get used to. I sleep through most of the day… of which I can hardly remember what day it actually is???? My schedule is that I work at the Venentian from 11pm to 7am. Anyone working in a casino never sees the light of day so it could be afternoon out and I would never know it. It just feels “out of time” in here.

Christmas is coming. Adolfo kept syaing that over and over today… I do not think he expected this year to come to an end so quickly. This will be out 3rd Christmas together. We do have most of our christmas shopping completed, I believe, and I am happy about that. BUT, my credit card is feeling a little abused. This includes the cost of the laptop I bought myself.

As soon as Christmas passes I will be faced with yet another birthday. I will be 41. Kill me. My dad is feeling my age, too. He realized that as I get older he is too! ha ha ha… I decided I wanted to celebrate my birthday at Commander’s Palace at the Aladdin Hotel on the 29th and have dinner with family and friends.

It should be really cool. I love good food and good company! Now, if I can only get a cheuffer to drive me around that night. Keith took care of my ass last year… or was that the year before that? When we went to FireFly????

Anyway, I am going to update my wish list tonight, too. Check it out!

xo

Scott

Life in Las Vegas has been … different. As anxious as I have been to move on… events have been set into motion that may interrupt my plans to escape. The loony bin keeps pulling me in and I am continuously giving in to the call of the siren… security and money.

This city is not that bad. It just happens that so many people in it are sick, disturbed, and ugly. This is the place where white trash with money come to thrive. Anyone can come here and make a lot of money… anyone. Even I have done reasonably well… but I throw it all away with the greatest of ease!

Well, my initial point was that fortune and fate have conspired again and in thier union have spawned oppurtunity… I am not at liberty to divulge any more than that. I find it intensely curious about how these things come into play and am sitting back curiously for more oppurtunities to emerge.

Sometimes I talk in riddles…. sounds like a load of horseshit doesn’t it?

There are days when one is much better off just staying home. I am having one of those weeks, but yesterday was the cream on top. Have you ever had a day that no matter what you touched or did something was bound to go haywire. Imagine it happening every couple of hours or so? Then, you (i.e. ME) start to lose your mind and freaking out everyone around me, you… or something like that.

Well, the good news is that I managed to buy my laptop. As you know I was really focused on an Apple iBook and realized I could not do it. As much as I wanted one I did not have any software to load on it and as soon as I needed it… well, it would be extremely expensive. Ugh….

Well, I will begin migrating over to this laptop for most of my functions and using my dinosaur desktop for generic things and a backup. My computer at home is this Micron thing I bought in 2001-ish …

Nothing else of any major importance to report today. I am having one of those days where I have a headache and it is moving so slowwww. I called in sick yesterday… I paid the price for that as mentioned previously. Today is my Friday which means I get Sat and Sun off which is unusual. I do not care to have weekends available… too many other people already do.

So, after all the trouble with yesterday we managed to do some cool things. We sent my mom and step dad off to see MamaMia at the Mandalay Bay theater. We also took them out to dinner at China Grill, which was fantastic, and expensive. But, it didn’t matter.

I did manage to spill water all over the table and drop a lot of food during the time we were there. My blood pressure and cholesterol must be through the roof. I am so primed for a heart-attack it is amazing.

Bet you would hate to be me. (What’s that??? Violins playing in the distance? Is it getting closer?) Anyone would hate to be me… (makes boo-boo face)