So, what is going on? As usual I am working til late in the evening on the
variety of projects I have taken on in my life. I simply wish they were providing
more money. At least I have been able to be a little more social lately as well.
I have left AIM open for chat more often and my regular peeps include Chippy
(aka R@!) and Nolly (aka Noah).
Anyone knowing this dark circle knows all about Mikey, about Noah, and Chippy.
Recently Noah was involved in a traffic accident involving 6 cars. He said he
was trapped in his car for 6 hours as it lye on its side. He broke his arm and
some ribs. This poor baby, I wanted to cradle him. Noah is a paradox and an
interesting figure that has wandered into my life. When I first met him (on-line
through AIM) I thought he was a spoiled, unenlightened, out-of-touch boy. There
were reasons for this, but I figured out it was built on my own prejudice. Noah
has been through a lot!
He has survived cancer, numerous physical injuries, recent major medical issues
that caused him blackouts and other trauma, and on and on. It’s like there is
a bizarre band of energy around him. He cherishes life so much. He is one of
the most passionate guys I can say I have met because he faces life head on
and embraces every moment of it. If he is afraid of death I would be surprised,
but he does not welcome it for sure.
This has become an entry about Noah so far. I think about him a lot. I think
about my own misconceptions of him. I still do not think I really know him.
Noah is my little prince. He loves and can receive love. He is in love with
his boyfriend Brian who seems like a great guy. He loves Mikey very much and
misses him intensely when he is away. When we talk I feel the love of a potential
friendship and admire his warmth.
In my life, things are still going well with Adolfo. He and I spent a nice
romantic day together yesterday. He works 7 days a week between the Venetian
Canal and Desert Passage in retail. I talked to him for a while yesterday about
his career, but I think he has a good future in retail if he wants it, but he
seems to desire other things? I know a lot of people look down their nose at
retail, but for some people there is a viable career in it. He has been doing
it so long he might as well make it a career. He said something about wanting
to teach, which he has the temperament for, but he is doing nothing to achieve
I did mention Mikey before. Home-boy and I have barely connected since he has
been back from Toronto. He seems to be making another life for him here and
when he moves in with Kevin, Josh, and Christian he may drift further away.
With the rift between GC and I, seems they have chosen to hang with him. Maybe
ol’ dysfunctional GC is on medication and is becoming bearable????? Well, not
enough for me.
I miss Mikey and the boys. I know I have Adolfo, but having a boyfriend does
not replace the company of friends. Maybe Josh, Kev, and Christian never cared
for me that much to begin with? Maybe they were just friends with me because
of the Mikey link? So, who knows. As Mikey drifts away from me who knows who
and what I will be left with in the coming weeks and months.
Oh well, I am not wallowing. Just taking the time to spill out the things in
my brain right now. Cheers!