Since just before I left for the Bahamas I have been dealing with a very disappointing event that left me reeling a bit. You see, there is this guy I have considered to be my “best friend” (BFF ya know). Well, not long ago he came to me and needed help with something and I dropped everything.
Well, over the last month I get ignored phone calls, blown off on times we normally hang out… blah blah blah. Well, I asked him for help and I was ignored. I told him I was very upset with him, but I am feeling a deep sens of betrayal. It stings…
So I ask myself how this happens to me all the time. It has to be me. It has to be something I am doing in my choices of people in my life. If I can;t rely on you let me know or be clear about it, then I can make my choices. I had a dear friend in Long Beach and found out right away I could never rely on him for anything… I could live with that and did for years. BUT GOD DAMN IT I AM SO SICK OF FUCKERS FUCKING ME THE FUCK OVER!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!