Now what?

Can’t say I can see the future… but after my last three entries I had hopes for something to go more positive. Now I deleted those three entries thinking I might be deluding myself once again.
I live life with a head full of pixie dust and dreams. For an artist who could support himself that might be a good thing, but a down and out loser who is making chump-change and can’t maintain a job it’s not so good.
Maybe dad was right about a lot of things, maybe he was just an asshole. None the less, there are times when his advice seems brilliant and his words take on meaning.
I feel stupid for believing in people and believing in myself. I’m stupid for trying to be
Meh… mom stop reading these stupid entries and and just delete the email login I sent you… you needn’t get wrapped up in my shit. I should have told you that already. When we talked on the phone earlier I had hopes that things with Adolfo and I were really going to go somewhere. I’m not so sure.
I’m a huge fuckup. I am the living embodiment of fuckup.

Posted in Drama - Pass please, nfm!* (not for mom), Things that haunt me.

One Comment

  1. Can’t leave it alone, everybody is having a hard time and the unemployment rate in Vegas is staggering. Of course there are those that are not having the hard time but don’t understand being out of work and the frustration involved. I will admit I have talked with people that don’t see a recession and I wonder what rock they live under. If you were in the medical field you would be in demand!

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